If You Don't Mind Me (This Way Forever)

Just a couple of technical notes about this is all I'm gonna say, gonna let this one reach whoever reads it the way they want to read it.

The biggest change from the first draft was the start was originally the end, by switching it I felt I was able to turn it into a sort of narrated conversation instead of it's original form which felt like a bunch of internal thoughts you never say to the person whose trying to be so nice to you.

The stanza which holds the demons at bay line, was written and rewritten 15 times before I settled on what it is now. 9 of those rewrites held no mention of demons or praying.


The allusions to delusions, and the "false morphine", and the sickness were originally directly placed on the person who was giving the happiness. But I felt it was better to leave whose "fault" it was up in the air.

Speaking of fault, I really struggled whether to give any sort of resolution or not to this. I didn't know if I should form a "this is the truth" ending, a "faith" based ending, or just leave it with "some sort of sickness" as the final line. I chose the "faith" based ending, because resolution in my works is a bit of a departure for me. Though have faith doesn't always work out, so it doesn't make it a total departure.